“Embrace the fear, trust the love.” This phrase has been tugging at my heart since my partner, in life, texted me this two days ago. It keeps echoing in my mind, looping around like an intoxicating song on repeat. I’m in love with how powerful and true this statement is. However, I’m terrified to live it. To wholeheartedly embrace fear and trust love.
Being a free-spirit is a part of my blueprint, it is how God has made me. If I’m restricted in any way I feel clostophobic. You can say I have some control issues (we all have our problems, that’s just one on my long list of flaws). Anywho, I’m a risk taker. I am always up for a challenge. But, lately I’ve been having a harder time embracing the fear. Maybe it’s a phase, maybe I’m jaded or maybe it’s because I am climbing up the age ladder; I’m going to say it’s a combination of the three. It’s becoming harder to be as carefree with my life. But, I don’t want the ideas of what society and people have placed in me to push me into a direction I don’t want to go. No! I might be scared, but that’s the beauty of it. When you embrace fear, it’s scary. You are, by definition, embracing an unpleasant emotion caused by the belief that someone or something is dangerous, likely to cause pain, or a threat. Umm, yeah–that doesn’t sound too fun. But let me ask you this. Are you willing to live a safe life with a huge probability of regretting it all when its too late? I refuse to take that kind of risk. Every day is a blessing. Every day we wake up, we have a chance to make it all worthwhile.
Yes I’m scared to look fear in the face and say, “come here, you beautiful thing, you!” And, wrap my arms around it, squeezing it tight with openness and affection. Because you know what? It is hard! When you’re scared, you are challenged. A fight or flight response is imbedded in our DNA. I pick fight. I will fight for a life worth living. I will not flee into the comforts of my home and pretend everything is okay. I would rather go through the pains and trials for the people I love and stand firm in my beliefs than lay down behind a white picket fence with my head in the clouds.
I will trust the love. No matter how hard it is to be vulnerable, the reward is worth all the dark days. There is not one relationship I have regretted being in. I have learned and grown so much from each person and the good and bad we had to face. I see what playing it safe looks like–a standstill. Being stuck in a limbo because the person is too afraid to get hurt, to put themselves out there. Kudos to all the people who keep picking themselves back up and pursuing a life worth living.
I challenge you to put yourself out there. I myself am walking on an unlit path, only seeing the one step I’m currently taking. That is called faith. Right now I am writing these words to you, in faith. I am putting myself out there in hopes of inspiring, in hopes of making a difference–in a small way. I encourage you to do the same. Embrace the fear, trust the love.