The Down After a High

For the past two weeks I have tried writing my next blog post. Every time I sat down to do so I couldn’t. For the past two and a half months I’ve had wonderful adventures to share with you all and now..what? Write to you about how tough it’s been? Well, yes. I need to write the truth. That is what we all crave.
I have been bored out of my mind! Although I’ve been to family gatherings, danced all night in a lounge with the view of the Empire State Building and living in one of the greatest cities in the world-something is missing. All of this is familiar to me. I have been bitten by the “travel bug.” Craving new and exciting things. As a writer and more importantly as a human being, I want to see more of what this world has to offer.

 Backpacking alone in sixteen countries has changed me. My perspective about others, my appreciation for food & culture, my vulnerability with strangers has helped shaped me into the woman I have always wanted to be. A grandmother who is able to share crazy stories and adventures with her grandchildren to help open their eyes and inspire them to walk the narrow path. I am grateful for all that I have done and all that I have seen. 
The reality is, at least for me, routine is important to get ahead. In the entertainment industry you need to be available in a moments notice. Auditioning several times a week while balancing other projects. Now-a-days you need to bring more then one talent to the table. You have to do it all. I get that. That is why I’m back in America. If it was up to me, I’m not sure where I’d be right now. Maybe walking the Great Wall of China, dip netting in Alaska, laying on a beach in Bora-Bora, running with the bulls in Pamplona? There are no limits! There’s so much to see and do, but I trust in The Lord. I know what needs to be done and because I want to be a faithful servant, I must listen.
It has been difficult adjusting to a routine again. I’ve felt wrong for being down. How could I be sad when I just had the most exhilarating and life changing experience of my life. Because I am no longer running with the same pack. People who understand what it’s like to want more, to drop everything and risk it all. To close your eyes in faith and jump. Jump into another world of dreams and adventure full of characters you only read about or see on television. Everything in me hungers to go back, to book a flight somewhere-far away. 
I will end with a quote that sums it up, for me.
“My ideas usually come not at my desk writing but in the midst of living.”  Anais Nin
..until next time.

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