The Lord has changed my life. A year ago I was put through tests that I am still healing from. My Savior has started to shape me, transform me. I am thankful for everything I’ve been through because it has brought me here, to this very place. To this incredible path and journey to a new life.
This past week has been life changing. I can’t even begin to tell you about the relationships that have formed here, the biblical sights I have seen, the rockets being launched from Gaza and so much more..
I know I can’t skim over the harsh reality of Israel in conflict with Gaza; and, me being in the center of it all. I rather not get into the politics of things. What I can say is that I refuse to live in fear. I am here for a reason. Some people have asked me to come home early. Sirens are going off. There’s a lot happening. Those who know me personally will get an in depth explanation of it all. I do pray for the lives that have been lost and the lives that will continue to be taken through wars and conflict. Just know that I am safe.
It’s hard to change the subject. It’s hard to even process all that is happening. I’m trying to wrap my mind around it all. My soul is at peace. I feel light and free. Living in a contradiction. It all makes sense, at least to me. One moment I’ve got it all figured out, another I’m clueless. Isn’t that the fun of life. The change. The learning and growing. I am so alive right now!!
I was baptized in the Jordan River, today. This is not the first time I’ve made an outward expression of my faith, but it was something He put on my heart. I leaned on Him during a low point knowing He would get me through and He did. Our Lord and Savior will never forsake us. All we need to do is surrender and trust in Him.
I surrender my life to you Father. Do with my life as You will. Fill me with your Spirit Lord. Lead me to the rock that is Higher then I. I bow down before you as a sinner. Give me strength, patients, wisdom and understanding.
Thank you for loving me the way that you do.
I share this with you to be a testimony of His Grace, of His love. I have never been more certain of anything in my life. Jesus is my rock. He is my everything.